I can see the Sun
I haven’t been writing for quite a long time, so many things had happened to me, as it had happened to all of us everyday. Those things forced us to grow up, if we are to learn. Of all the pain and sorrow we’ve dealt with, believe that God has bigger plan ahead of us 
I went to Mentari Project Tuition last Saturday with Keeya. Actually I’ve registered as a volunteer at the beginning of this year but never had the chance to actually go there and spill my love. Okay, basically Mentari Tuition is a tuition for kids who came from families who are unable to afford normal rate tuition fees. In Mentari Project, all they need to do is to pay RM10 for materials for each kids that they send. If they send 2 kids or more, they are only required to pay RM20.
Other familiar faces to me are Munie, Kak Fadh, Kak Farhana, Abang Tam. They had been asking me to drop by every weekend but I never had the chance. When Keeya came to me one day in AIKOL and told me that she had also registered as a volunteer and had never been there, we’ve decided to go last weekend. With her ‘kereta kecil warna merah’, we drove all over from Gombak to Desa Mentari and met all 30 young hopeful faces. We had fun teaching those kids… walaupun kadang-kadang aku cam naik darah gak bila aku ajar diorang memain.. ye la, budak budak kecik sekolah rendah…
Benda yang aku nak share dengan korang ialah… aku realize satu benda. aku ni dah study duk kat uia ni dah nak masuk lima tahun. Apa achievement aku? Teater, debate, counseling, mooting, advertising, modelling.. tu je? Itu pun aku rasa tak puas and nak lagi itu dan ini. And paling hina sekali ialah bila aku rasa diri aku macam loser dan tak berguna sebab tak successful macam kawan-kawan aku yang lain. Bila ada time terluang, aku dok meronggeng lepak sana sini, tgk wayang, karaoke, bowling, makan2 ntah banyak lagi ah. Kalau ikut time macam sekarang ni, aku tgh dok shopping sakan kat OU, Midvelly, KLCC, Sg Wang sebab tengah sale mencanak-canak (btw, Esprit tengah sale up to 80%). In the end, aku tanya diri aku, apa contribution aku pada soceity? agama? bangsa?
okay, dengan hanya masuk debate, teater, counseling, manage to get awards jadi champ, I do inspire kids to be a good debater. cukupkah? or sebenarnya motif aku masuk bukan really to inspire kids, tapi tekejar-kejar nak kumpul title champ? and for the record aku tak penah champ pape pun.
dengan join Celcom Metro Modelling, ada la charity project here and there. Again, cukup ke? Besides, aku tak buat mende pun, duit seme celcom yang provide, aku just datang duduk dengan anak-anak yatim and makan sama-sama… contribution dari aku? less than 2%! aku tak puas.
all I can say, aku dah jadi selfish selama aku blaja kat U ni. all I can think of is how to be great. How to be the best. Bila tidak menjadi begitu berjaya seperti yang aku mahukan, aku down. Tolonglah… ramai lagi orang kat luar tu yang bukan sahaja tak fikir how to be the best, malah tengah struggle nak menempatkan diri dalam masyarakat agar tak tertinggal kerana kesempitan hidup.
Seeing those hopeful faces, Mentari Tuition proiject really had touched me. Kalau korang ada kelapangan, come and help them . They need us.
