MEMOIRS OF A SON OF A POSTMAN

Well, right now I’m spending some time for short semester, but not taking any subjects since none are offered. So I decided to revise Islamic Banking, prepare for future. Poyo jek. Ntah ntah dok kuar je tiap-tiap hari. Nothing much had happened. Interschool Debating Championship 2008 had ended, I am satisfied with my result, indeed God has given me ample reasons to smile. Eee.. can’t wait for jamming session with my band next week. Buh-san gak bila takde kelas nih.

Anyway, I wished to share words of wisdom - Let It Be. Sebenarnya tajuk lagu the Beatles yang last. I got to know this from a performance by an AI contestant, Brooke White who sang it on the first top 12 show. I love the song so much and somehow got connected to the story. The message of the song is whatever it is, in the end, you just gotta LET IT BE

1. We had planned it perfectly, we’ve taken precautions and caveats, yet it did not turn out to be the way we imagined it to be. Macam member aku sorang ni nama dia Faiz, dia in charge untuk year book Law Grads 2008. She had done almost everything under the sun untuk pastikan year book lebih bagus from previous years. She searched for the lowest price offer, and ada banyak gilergh masalah timbul, and she managed to overcome them tanpa menyusahkan Atun. Tapi in the end, year book tu spoilt jugak printingnya. Dan ramai orang bising year book tak berkualiti dah lah bayar mahal. Then I told Faiz, just face it. Dia dah buat macam-macam yang sudah termampu, but the situation just out of her hands. Dan dia dah tak mampu buat apa-apa. Bukannya dia tak cuba. In the end, Faiz, you gotta let it be. 

2. One person had done something so bad or spread something unpleasant about somebody. Yet a friend of yours backed him up for the sole reason - He/She is among their group. He/She is his/her friend. Be that person commit rape, sexual assault or whatever evil existed under the sun, the criminal is their friend. But when other people commit the same, they are the one who stood up against it. (For the sole reason - that other people happened to be NOT their friend) This is something we can’t comprehend. We tried to fix it. Futile. Face it! Mulut dan perangai sesetengah orang memang cam p*****. And they have friends who value them sooo much that and do not mind what he did or he said to others. They are meant to be best buddies. In the end, no matter how grevious we are hurt and devastated as the victim, we know we gotta let it be.

3. We had done a major favor for somebody. We helped them when they are in need or even without being asked. We covered their a** when they are fucked up. Does it worth it when we got replies - "Apa-apa jelah." "Huh, wuteva." Serius kita rasa cam tak berbaloi apa yang kita buat selama ni. Rasa nak pedajal semula pun ada. Then I learned, in the name of love of humanity, just carry on doing what we had done previously, helped them, cover their a**es, do whatever it takes. Kak Maz told me once, "Hairi, when you love a person or a thing, love it unconditionally." Yes, it is true. Nothing much I can do to make people realize and value what had I done, and they are free to say anything - "wuteva" or "pape je lah"… the reward is from God anyway. I just gotta let it be.

4. A superior valued and treasured selected people. Malang sekali bila kita yang tahu siapa ’selected people’ tu sebenarnya. Kat depan superior bukan main hipokrit lagi. Berbalas-balas testi, salam cium tangan, asking stuffs like they care. Tapi kat belakang, standard la dok mengata, create speculation, drawing baseless conclusion. And kita yang menyaksikan keadaan ni. We could just tell the superior the truth. Tapi deep down inside, kita tahu tak worth it. This is life. Some people had to bermuka-muka to survive. Besides, nothing much we can do. Let it be.

5. A friend of yours is overprotective. You are not at liberty to do anything. If it goes against his desires, he will treat you like a piece of shit. Apa lagi aku nak buat? You asked yourself. Dah banyak session we’ve talked our hearts out. Let it be.

The maxim Let It Be works on me. Nothing much pun yang aku boleh buat. Masa makin suntuk untuk aku. In the end, I know I gotta let it be. Serahkan pada Allah untuk tentukan. I missed those good old days, but they had successfully and happily move on and not turning back. Seems like I turned around to see history too much that I just forget to let go and move on.

May peace be with you.   

1. Right now I am in the middle of final examination. Four papers had left (only one I have confidence in passing) while another two is coming without anticipation on my part. Duh… To those who had just returned to earth from Mars, I am currently in 5^th Year Syariah, di mana nikmat aku untuk menjawab exam dalam English telah ditarik balik, kerana final exam seme dalam bahasa Arab, and aku dah tak pernah angkat tangan mintak kertas extra cam dulu sebab aku tak tau apa nak jawab… Somehow okay je amek Syariah ni cuma aku rasa beban sikit sebab Bahasa Arab aku tak bagus. Thanks to Aneen sebab lead the class. Kalau takde Aneen susah kelas aku. And also to grup discuss aka merepek kat library – Syaq, Yan & Ain. Malas nak pikir sangat pasal exam ni sebenarnya… what could be the worst thing that can happen pun? Fail the exam shouldn’t be the end of the world. Lain la kalo aku pointer freak. Tapi mencirit gak ah nak jawab dengan Bank Negara kalo aku fail. Korang doakan aku yek? Tqvm.

2. Interschool Debate dah semakin dekat. Dan aku (walau tanpa keredhaan) telah dilantik menjadi Programme Manager. Aku pun perasan Interschool kali ni tak kalut macam tahun tahun sebelumnya. Maybe sebab kteorang seme cam take it for granted kot sebab seme headcom bagi aku sangat mantap dan well-verse dalam keje masing-masing, especially Asst2 aku yang dulu yang telah aku hajar seme selok belok special task and aku ada full kepercayaan kepada diorang. Banyak dugaan yang datang kali ni – En Khir wont be around sebab gi umrah, platinum sponsor takde langsung tahun ni, so bajet memang kena cut gilergh #@%@, sekolah pun tak meriah sangat macam tahun dulu and macam-macam lagi coming soon. Aku hanya berdoa pada Allah janganlah di tahun aku pegang PM ni jadi tahun kejatuhan Interschool. Aku sudah mencuba and akan terus  cubasampai abeh program. And buat sekian kalinya, Mun, -AKU TAK SUKA JADI PM! Wargh!!! Serious, tak bley rejoice!

3. And aku nak kongsi sket citer yang membabitkan aku. Maybe ada member aku tak setuju dengan tindakan aku mencoretkan kat blog ni pasal citer ni sebab dah lama and tanak bangkitkan semula. Tapi saje nak kongsi moral of the story. Besides, aku kena update jugak pada member-member aku kat oversea yang slalu baca blog aku ni. Gini. Ntah mai dari mana timbul satu cerita bahawa aku telah offer seorang member kamcing aku Y (bukan nama sebenar) dengan harga RM50 untuk kami melakukan seks sejenis bersama-sama. (Still aku emos dengan member-member aku yang gelak sampai menangis kat NZ time aku citer mende ni kat korang) At first memang aku cam marah gak dengan citer ni, lelama aku tegelak sebab serious tak masuk akal. To the creative inventor of the story, jumpa di Padang Mahsyar ye.. and aku cam bengang gak ah dengan orang yang MENYAMPAI cerita ini walaupun dia tak tahu pun kesahihan cerita ini, just rely on baseless circumstantial evidence setakat mana kepala hotak dia bley observe dan make conclusion, such as – time training royal selalu berdua, and bila sorang takde, dua-dua akan takde, gi buat seks kot… huhu… bodo sial… point is, bila nko tak tau citer sebenar and takde bukti konkrit, tak payah dok menyampai la… tu namanya fitnah and kalo ikut hukum Islam, dah jadik cam Qazf… tanak explain panjang-panjang pasal mende ni, bukannya mereka tau @ nak amik tau pun. Kalo korang nak tau, aku ni tahu je pasal rahsia sesetengah orang dan rahsia itu memang crucial tahap gaban dan kalo aku sebarkan kat orang ramai, confirm career dan apa yang mereka bangga-banggakan sebelum ini akan menjunam sampai takde nilai LANGSUNG! (And kepada mereka yang aku pegang rahsia crucial mereka ni dinasihatkan tidak buat s#*% dengan aku la) And tidak seperti PARA PENYAMPAI ini yang takde bukti concrete, aku ada bukti – pictures them doing it, even video… boleh je aku post kat youtube ke, frenster ke… tapi aku tak buat… cukuplah aku tahu and aku matikan kat situ sebab aku tahu apa effect pada orang tu and aku tanak orang lain ada perspektif negative pada dia (why should we hate a perfect stranger relying on baseless gossip?). Even some of those people penah pedajalkan aku pun sebelum ni, still aku takkan balas dendam dengan membuat penyelongkaran ekslusif seperti yang dilakukan oleh PENYAMPAI ini… Moral of the story, kalau cerita itu tidak ada bukti, matikan sahaja conversation tu, jangan sampaikan pada orang lain. End. Malas nak sambung lagi. PENYAMPAI  tu bukan akan berubah pun, I bet time dia tengah baca ni, mesti tengah justify depan monitor computer, tindakan dia tu berniat baik…(Tak, sebenarnya apa yang saya lakukan ialah… blab la bla… wuteva..) Esok kat padang Mahsyar kalo berani pegi lah justify depan Tuhan. Wuteva pun, kte jumpa kat akhirat nanti, k? C ya there!
4. Ada junior yang tanya setelah aku clarify isu ni kat dia "OMG Abg Hairi. Kenapa tak clarify hal ni kat orang lain? Dah lama gell dah isu ni and dah ramai dah tahu." Jawapannya: "Wahai juniorku (takdelah aku cakap cenggini saja bagi dramatik), sometimes in situation like this we chose not to speak or clarify, not because we are afraid or malas, tapi sebab kita tahu siapa di kalangan kita yang betul-betul faham dan kenal siapa kita sebenarnya. And most importantly God knows what we did. And some people just never learn. If you were in my position, you’ll do the same."
5. Aku bertanya - Why those jerks, back stabbers, bitches and morons had to be born at the first place? Serious aku tak paham dengan kelahiran sesetengah manusia kat dunia ni apabila tidak ada yang mulia pun keluar daripada mulut mereka. I kept on thinking and aku jumpa jawapan - Manusia- manusia seperti inilah yang buatkan kita realize siapakah sahabat-sahabat kita sebenarnya, those people yang akan support kita at these moments, dan kita akan lebih appreciate these people dalam hidup kita. To see the rainbow, we have to go thru the rain. Terima kasih kepada member-member aku seme yang memahami dan support aku. Again, thank you.

Setakat ni je dulu kot… banyak nak tulis… maybe later. TQVM for your time reading.