MEMOIRS OF A SON OF A POSTMAN

I’ve searched all over the internet by all means under the sun but couldn’t find any trace of it. Last option, Syazwan came to my mind, so I asked his favour to get it from Torrent. Yes! This Boy never let me down! He managed to get it , and it was quick! I’m speaking of no other than my latest addiction, Sheila Majid - Malam Ku Bermimpi It’s ironic when I am not a big fan of hers, but eventually I just fell in love with the song. Originally by Allahyarham P Ramlee & Saloma (duet tho!) I listened to it over and over again sampai dah naik hafal dah lagu ni. The new version by Sheila Majid was so exclusive and soothing to my ears.Not sure whether ni lagu baru dia or dah lama dah… By the way, this is the lyrics (for the eyes of those who appreciate the beauty of lyrics)

Malam ku bermimpi
Hai dengan satu bintang
Berkata-kata ku di jendela
Ku lihat kanda tersenyum memandang
Asmara bergelora
Meresap ke dada

Malam ku terlihat
Oh sekuntumlah bunga
Baunya harum menarik hati
Tak sanggup menahan rasa asmara
Meresap mendalam
Mengusik di jiwa

Sayang jauh di balik awan
Wajahmu tetap berseri-seri
Laksana bulan sedang mengambang
Menawan dan menggoncang dalam kalbu

Oh angin meniup
Bawa daku ke sana
Hasratku ingin bersama-sama
Tak tahan rasa hati menderita
Gelora asmara
Selalu menggoda

And this is my latest artwork:

Life is short.. for some of us, it may be shorter than expectations can reign. It is not erroneous to say live life to the fullest. My sis said, life is in twofolds: being appreciated for what u achieved or touching people’s life.

    The former means you got so many acheivements in life. You won this, you were crowned that title, people knows you are master of this, people knows you are expert on that.. even some called you a legend. Yes, what we gain here is self satisfaction and self esteem. It’s good.

   The latter means touching… making changes in people’s life. Somehow when we stepped into the person’s life, he or she will realize something new. The beauty of life and breathing. And making changes in life is not that easy. Not easy at all. What we gain here, buddy? Some of us don’t give a damn coz what they’re most concern of is their life and how great and undefeated they claimed to be. We gain the same thing - self satisfaction.

   The former is something we can see.. something others can see…

   The latter is something others don’t know, you don’t know.. but the person that you touched really appreciate that (unless he or she is the ungrateful species).

   I don’t know whether I have touched people’s life for 20 years of living, but all that I know, so far, 4 persons had made changes to my life and I really really appreciate that… I won’t be dropping any names.. but I wanna say, u guys are such angels.. and I am truly touched.. and moved.. thank you…

Erm.. hari ni ialah hari yang cukup special untuk aku - Bzday mak aku!! Kalau takde mak aku, maka takde la aku.. Celebrate? My mother is a typical kampung Malay mother who is much much more comfortable with what they are accustomed to, rather than to accept new things, including birthday celebration.. apa hadiah untuk mak aku yek? Memandangkan finacial status aku yang sangat rapuh, aku cadang nak tolong mak aku wat keje umah besok.. haha… jadik anak dara plak aku besok… aww.. tak rela I…ala… keje-keje umah ni bukan keje pompuan sorang jek.. lagi pun, aku jek stok anak teruna merangkap anak dara kat umah ni… yang lain seme dah kawin.. kalau time raya lagi la.. aku la anak jantan memanjat sana sini, aku la anak dara, tolong mak kat dapur… nasib baik tak konpius identiti..

Btw, sekarang ni Faizal FC plak mintak tolong aku design image header forum diorang.  Aku try sehabis baik (macam moto pengakap plak) Lagipun, it’s a good practise for me. Mamat Faizal ni pun okay gak nyanyi.. aku rasa bley ke final kot.. Aku realize one thing.. rasa cam dah ketandusan idea nak design… I know, in whatever we are doing, for the best, we must push ourselves to the limit.. or have I arrived at the limit?

So many things happened lately. Kelmarin, aku baru jek dilantik menjadi moderator untuk forum Velvet Unofficial Fan Club. Rasa nak gelak pun ada sebab pe bende keje moderator pun aku tak tau. Lepas tu admin mintak tolong aku design image header untuk forum tu. Aku dah hantar dua dah kat dia. Problem is, gambar Velvet photoshot tak banyak.. so agak terkongkong la gaks aku nak wat keje.. lagipun, aku ni beginner lagi.. banyak gilergh bende yang aku perlu tau pasal adobe photoshop ni tapi aku tak tau…mampus aku..takpe aku try jek..

Lagi satu, ada sorang Minah dalam idolforums.com ajak aku join request shop dia… siap mintak seme sample artwork aku lagi… problem is, artwork aku tak banyak.. memang tahap beginner lagi.. kalau sifu aku tengok, mesti dia gelak guling-guling melekat ke dinding…

Pagi tadi aku tengok citer Charmed kat tv. Actually aku dah stop tengok siri ni season 4.. sebab dah start merepek ke laut… doesn’t make any sense.. tapi pagi tadi sebab dah buhsan, aku pun layan jek la..

It turned out to be a wonderful episode!! Pasal Paige & Pheobe mati kena bunuh, jadi Piper kena turned back time untuk selamatkan mereka. Problem is, dia overdo the timing, menyebabkan dia sampai ke zaman mak bapak dia… last-last bile seme kumpul, dalam ruang tamu tu ada complete set of family - granny, mak diorang, bapak diorang, Piper, Leo, Pheobe & balak baru dia yang bakal jadik husband in future, Paige & dua orang anak lelaki Piper yang dah besar panjang.. part last sekali paling touching. Diorang tulis kenangan masing-masing, and by that time, masing-masing dah kawin, dah ada anak dan paling sweet, skali, Piper dah ada cucu.. hehe dah tua pun rambut straight ala-ala rebonding lagi…

  Aku tepon Kak Nani tadi, diskas nyer diskas, kitaorang tak jadi nak gi friendly debate tu… lagipun, debate Bar Council dah nak dekat… join debate tu jek la kot..

hehe… most of u guys yang tau hidup aku selama ni ialah nomadic life (pindah randah) sebab bapak aku sakit. So, aku berulang-alik antara Muar, Cheras & Shah Alam. Rumah aku kat Muar ni selalu kena tinggal. Tapi sementara nak tunggu sem, kitaorang duk lama la kot kat Muar ni. Lagipun doktor bagi bapak aku rest selama 2 bulan daripada medication.

Korang nak tau apa jadi dengan umah aku? Bawah umah ni dah ada sarang lebah yang sangat besar!! Ni gambar abang aku ambik tadi…siap ada madu siot..

Sekarang ni kitaorang tengah figure out cam ne nak halau lelebah ni.. tapi kitaorang nak madu dia.. kalau kteorang attack sarang dia, sah-sah diorang seme emos dan mulalah menyengat orang ramai.. tambahan plak depan umah aku ni jalanraya utama… kalo panggil bomba suruh racun.. abeh la tak bley amik madu…

tetiba teringat lagu yang ada lirik - madu di tangan kananku.. lalala…

  Post kali ni aku nak bercakap pasal AF konsert kedua. Yang tak minat @ benci gilergh kat AF, tok sah terhegeh-hegeh nak check & later poyo kritik cam bagus.

   Pompuan lagi yang kuar AF kali ni.. Apa-apa pun, aku rasa AF kali ni tak berapa best cam dulu. Kalau miss concert pun takpe. Dalam AF ni cuma dua orang jek yang aku rasa power - Velvet & Farhan.

  Masa Velvet nyanyi Langit Ke Tujuh memang powergh gilergh tahap cipan!! Aku respek gilergh la… Farhan pun perform gaks… Tapi standard la… rasa aku sampai bilergh-bilergh pun pompuan takkan menang AF ni… Mamat Mirul tu biler la nak kuar… buang masa jek nak nengok dia nyanyi.. bukan sedap pun..

   Apa aku buat cuti ni? Hmm.. bosan sebenarnya.. nasib baik ada laptop ni, bley wat blending.  18 hb ni ada friendly debate dengan UITM. Kak Nani cam tak confirm lagi bley join ke tak. Aku pun ikut dia. Kalau dia jadi join, aku pun ikut sekali. Kalau dia tak jadi, aku pun tak jadi la. Kalau jadi (apa ayat aku ni?) dia dah cop nak jadi 3rd speaker. Aku nak jadik first speaker. Second speaker tatau sapa. Ntah la tengok la nanti.

Sekarang ni aku kat Muar dengan complete set of my family. Kalo nkorang nak tau, aku tengah menaip blog sambil meniarap dan dua orang anak buah aku tengah panjat badan aku, as if aku ni motor. Siap ada sound efek lagi diorang buat sendiri.

   Seme orang balik ni sebab atok ayah aku kat kg batu pahat tengah sakit tenat. Dengar kata, buah pinggang dia dah tak berfungsi lagi. Atok aku ni memang kena kencing manis dulu. Tapi dia bedal gaks, tak jaga makan. Defense dia: Ada ubat. Kalau sakit makanlah ubat. All that I know, family aku ni memang ramai gilergh kena diabetes.. aku kena jaga makan dari sekarang. Aku doakan atuk aku cepat sembuh…

   Sekarang ni demam World Cup. Tapi tv kat umah aku ni dekat dengan bilik mak aku. Kalau kitaorang nak nengok bola, kena slowkan volume. Kalau nak jerit ‘Gol!’ kena tekap mulut dengan bantal. AF plak macam tak best jek tahun ni. Miss pun takpe.

   Ni keje aku kat umah ni. Buat blend. Aku baru blaja teknik baru. Abang aku dah bising. Aku ni asyik ngadap laptop jek katanya. Habes tu? Takkan nak ngadap muka dia?

Semalam selection debate untuk debate FOMCA & Integriti. Meriah gilergh studio semalam. Tapi aku tak join selection, cuma melukut di tepian gantang, buat-buat cam pandai tolong bebudak lain prepare walaupun jelas aku lagi bodo sebenarnya… Kui kui kui… Anyway, tahniah kepada Abg Shun, Daud, Syazwan, Zaki, Raihan, Ejay, Ricca & Husna kerana terpilih untuk mewakili UIA nanti. Thanks to Nani for her assistance to all of us. Aku tak dapat nak tolong directly nanti sem depan sebab dah busy ngan teater, tapi doa aku sentiasa untuk mereka semua.

Ada satu offer keje, tapi kena hantar resume & audition dulu. Jadik DJ Radio Jakim, yet another new stuff that I crave for. Tapi requirement: ada background agama. Aku cam konpius sket.. background jek kan? Front ground takde takpe ke? hahaha… lawak je.. (kot kot kang ada yang emos dok sound aku) Kalau dapat okay gaks, dapat income. Aku dah la broke sekarang ni. Dah la dengar rumours Pak Lah nak naikkan harga minyak lagi. Mana aku nak korek duit?

I had too much fun. It’s time I’m paying for all the joy. And paying has never been viewed as something just & justified.

We can’t satisfy everybody’s expectation. Trying to satisfy everybody’s expectation is the most stupid thing to do. But when majority’s expectations are not fulfilled, maybe we must reconsider.

I need to find peace of mind, that had been mine, I once owned.. please, God..

Rajin plak aku menulis blog arinih. Ni post kedua untuk ari nih. Kak Nani suruh aku buat blend untuk dia, gambar-gambar dari Vienna. Masalahnya, pose dia seme sama untuk seme gambar. Down.. Aku pun buatlah untuk dia. Aku belum bubuh dalam blog aku ni, dia dah letak kat default pic dalam profile dia. Obses betul.. hehe..

anyway, aku dah mula rasa bosan dengan teknik & style blend aku ni… tapi malas la plak nak belajar from tutorial from internet teknik-teknik baru…

Lagi satu yang aku baru buat ni, member aku, nama dia Ain. Ok tak?

Too many occasions took place, yet I am not passionate to talk about them anymore. Too many conflicts arose, yet everything is under control now. Too many people I’ve met, yet I do not know where to start.

Last Wednesday was a blast. Zaki, Syazwan & me went out for a movie. Daud had just arrived from Bahamas setelah mencari susur galur salasilah keluarga di sana, and who refused to go out with us, which consequently me & syazwan formed ‘GPMS’ – Gerakan Pemuda Merajuk Sakan (merajuk & emos dengan Daud yang tanak kuar ngan kitaorang tengok movie arituh) Zaki ahli yang sering berpaling tadah.

Me & Zaki watched X-Men 3 – The Last Stand. This is the best X-Men ever. Every angle, every scene, every second and every beat! Basically it concerns a war against human, who manages to find a so called cure for mutant. But or course, they refused to be cured. Tapi ada gaks la beberapa part yang down, and perhaps they really described the title – Last Stand:

1. Cyclops murdered by Pheonix
2. Xavier also died, but in the end idup balik.. tak paham aku..
3. Mystique turned into a normal human being.
4. Rogue also went for the medication to be a normal human being so that she can do all those touching stuff without hurting Iceman.. duh!

Malam tuh, kitaorang training debate, & after three years hadn’t been debating, I made fool of myself that night by babbling in front of the coaches. Usulnya- Realiti tv Merosakkan Moral Masyarakat, and I am on the proposition side, together with Adira, Arina & Zaki. Syazwan, Ain, Moon & Raihan on the other side.Bila sesi komen, memang la aku merasa betapa bodohnya aku di dunia ini. But to tell the truth, debate ni lain sket ngan Mooting. Both argues, tapi adrenaline yang mengalir tu lebih best kalo tgh debate.

After that, I was damn busy being emcee for a real GPMS programme. Sorry to say, it was the worst programme ever attended. I thought it was supposed to be a grand programme. No it was not. Even nama VIP pun bley wat memain. Dan ada sekor siamang yang layan aku macam aku ni sub-com @ kuli batak nenek dia. Takpe, aku dah sound dah mereka yang berkaitan. Biadap sungguh.. tapi tak seme.. ramai jek yang okay.. aku percaya GPMS tak ajar siamang tu biadap macam tuh.

My spend Friday night with my sis. She gave me a treat at Chillies. Sampai kol 11 lebey pun terhegeh-hegeh nak abihkan makanan yang sangat banyak itew. We had a conversation. Alah! Normal bro & sis nyer conversation la..

Semalam, Kak Ana amik aku & Syazwan gi main bowling. Lepas tu, tolong Kak Ana masak kat umah En Khir. En Khir takde kat umah, so kitaorang ni seme temankan Kak Ana. Terus jadi cam banglo akademi fantasia plak. Daud, Zaki, Tj, Nana, Ashu & Kajol pun ader gaks. Kak Ana punya merepek memang first class, mau terburai isi perut aku nak gelak.

Pengajaran yang aku dapat dalam beberapa hari ni:

Some people are to be respected, no more than what they achieve or what they can magically do. No more.

In friendship, there are 4 stages:

1. Knowing – kita kenal siapa dia.
2. Understanding – Bile kita dah perasan benda yang kita menyampah pasal dia,

   cuba

   fahamkan kenapa dia jadik camtuh. Mungkin the way he grows up influence dia cam tuh, atau dia ada family problem dari kecik.

3. Tolerating – Kita suba tegur dia elok-elok,

   cuba

   ubah dia. At the same time,

   cuba

   muhasabah diri kita gaks, kot kita yang bersalah.

4. Acceptance – Kita terima dia seadanya. Biasakan dengan perkara yang kita tak suka pasal dia. Kalau tak biasa gaks, pikir elok-elok, worth it tak kita simpan dia dalam our circle of friends?

Watak aku dalam X-Men.. kui kui kui… bebudak ni la bagi title kat aku..